Waiting for THE CALL!!

I read a tweet by Paulo Coelho that I could relate with this. And the tweet only has acted as the spark for me to reflect and write!

Not knowing whether to wait or to forget is the worst kind of suffering. – Paulo Coelho

I feel it is so true. And they have become more so due to the hi-tech chatting and SMS facilities in our hands – all the time! Yes, mobile phones have made our lives comfortable. But they have also made it to run the other way – we all know the numerous demerits (remember the essays you wrote in school?)!

But here I’m gonna talk something little different….

You call somebody. S/he is busy with something and doesn’t have time to talk, so tells that they will be calling sometime later. You readily agree, cos you don’t want to interrupt their work. Then you engage into something with the hope that when they are free they will be calling. You had something important to ask, or maybe – discuss. And so you keep yourself free from getting involved in any such task that would force you to say, “I’ll call!!!”

And you wait for sometime!…..Then you wait for some more time! But…

Then with  a heavy heart, you start with your important stuffs. You finish them too. And you are still waiting. You don’t want to talk to somebody else about your query because you are still expecting ‘the call’.

Time and again you check out your phone to know that might be, a message has arrived…. or you missed the call. You check the ‘profile settings’ thinking to change it from ‘silent mode’, although knowing that you never keep it in ‘silent’.

And you wait!…

Then, somehow, you finish off your query with somebody else! So it becomes ok even if you don’t get ‘the call’ now! But it was never the query – just that when they have said, they WILL call! And you wait….and WAIT…….

At last, you either give up or you try again! Each action results in a different consequence, of course it does!

If you give up, it’s fine – you will cope up! But if you try again, thinking that probably they might have fallen into some trouble or you feel it’s important…… more than your ego, you let yourself into great risk. In fact you are increasing your trouble multiple times.

You message, and again – WAIT; and they still don’t reply. Then finally, you understand that now you should LET GO! And  you feel relaxed! Huhh!!!!

Have you ever made somebody to wait for your call? Are they still waiting? I think, if you don’t want to see the person’s face or be with anymore – at least you can message – that you no longer want to talk! or whatever. That would be more comfortable, than the LOOOONG wait!

how          about you fallinginto such situation – I mean you waiting? Has it happened with you? Does the above words by any means reflect your emotions?

Let’s not let others feel so!!!:)

Karma……Conviction – good…. Bad…etc!

Conviction – the prime necessity to be successful at anything!

We all have passed through different phases of lives – to become what we are today. We all have different genes given to us by our parents…..grandparents………great grandparents and greater of our greatest grandparents. In fact, if I try understanding and searching, I can, without doubt, conclude that they have together come down to build up our ‘perception’. Yes, perception – an amazing concept – stating that every individual has a particular style of looking at the world around them. According to the Wikipedia, it is “the organization, identification, and interpretation of sensory information in order to represent and understand the environment.”

And this ‘perception’ is what builds up our reaction. And that’s what allows us to have self-belief. I mean when I try to develop my action in a manner congruent to my perception of the world, I will have more and more conviction in my action. And thus – more self-belief!!! So, my inner calling becomes my Karma. And I will be able to do ‘it’ with more conviction than anything else.

Many a times, we tend to leave our battle grounds – karma – because of FEAR – with some stupid justifications to the outer world. But we ourselves very well know that we are running away. And this sense of guilt won’t let us be at peace. That is why Swami Vivekananda calls us all to hold on, and fight. When we fight and fail, we come to peace – way to enlightenment. But when we run away because of fear, our heart keeps dwindling and calling back. I keep thinking – “Had I resisted for some more time, probably I would have got through.” The mystical saint has, therefore, called us all only to leave out our fears.

Moreover, all gurus of motivation have continually stressed the significance of having conviction and faith in order to be successful at anything.

Every soul has his own way of attaining – salvation – that is the true purpose of the soul on the earth. At least, that’s what I believe – or say, like to believeJ

But still, I again think whether it is justified to do mass murders as Kasab did? Or as other crimes are happening around us?

Gratitude expressed!!

At times our own light goes out and is rekindled by a spark from another person. Each of us has cause to think with deep gratitude of those who have lighted the flame within us. -Albert Schweizner

Silent gratitude isn’t much use to anyone. -G. B. Stern

Last month, my institute celebrated ‘Gratitude day’ by singing Michael Jackson’s Heal the World. It felt great to be among the thousands singing it together. And there, while singing it, my mind flew to a different thought – “if given a chance, who all would I like to express my gratitude to?”

So before the sky falls down some day, I would really….

Starting with my underwear friends, I would like to thank all of them, who were always there around me to offer any help I needed, and pull me up, or kick my ass… or do something that has still kept me going. Then I would like to thank my brother and all the ones with whom I have shared the home in Delhi. They have all stood there, no matter what! They even had to deal with my laziness and sleepy mind.

Also, I would express my gratitude to the many friends I made during my working days in the two organizations I served. They were the ones who made my life possible in those organizations. There would be a word or sentence, or even an SMS that would act as a prod to me and lead meh to something like the way Archimedes felt when he spoke ‘Eureka’!

Further there came experienced trainer whose words and awards helped me cross every obstacle that came along the way. And then, there in my postgraduate institute, I met empathetic professors and friends who did everything and got me half way through my degree.

And then I would also like to express gratitude to all my blogger friends and writers of books I read that have been an inspiration for me. Moreover, thanks to all my family members who were always there to support me at every step.

And finally, to all the ones whom I met along my life’s journey till date because there must be something I learnt or understood from your words that I applied later in my life.

Life is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though sometimes it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and grieves which we endure help us in our marching onward.- Henry Ford

Here I have not mentioned any name because that would mean numerous names….. and I, in fact, hope that the right person will definitely get the right message!!!

 

Failure is success!

Confused? Lemme help you!

How do you feel when you fail at something? If you ask me, I would be sad….. worried…….. depressed……. devastated? I am sure, it would be somewhat similar with you – if not exactly the same!

And some among us may think worse! They even start to feel that it were the end of life – there’s nothing more left in life! Having said this, it won’t be surprising to know that a few even take failure literally as the ‘final thing’ and head on to destroy themselves. You must have come across such people…. But is it right – to think this way?

Let’s face reality! Everybody fails. If you go through biographies and stories of achievers and famous personalities, you’ll feel it. Those people didn’t get through at the first hit. They have achieved remarkable heights after failing soooo many times. And a few even kept trying all their lives….. and close to their death bed only, they had what they wanted!

There’s nothing great achieved without failure. Edison, Abraham Lincoln, writer of Harry Porter series and many more still – have all failed…..failed……failed……. and only then were they able to reach there.

That’s one aspect!

Another thing what I feel is that failing at anything helps you take a step towards your eternal goal. It makes you more humble. For me, each failure moves me a step closer to the TRUTH! And I get closer to my LORD…….! What more does a human soul want??

Being in the world, I feel, failure is the only mode to freedom. And so, to SUCCESS!!!

What do you feel? Do you see any truth in what you read here? Or it’s all FAD?

HOLD ON YET A WHILE, BRAVE HEART!

If the sun by the cloud is hidden a bit,
If the welkin shows but gloom
Still hold on yet a while, brave heart,
The victory is sure to come.

No winter was but summer came behind,
Each hollow crests the wave,
They push each other in light and shade;
Be steady then and brave.

The duties of life are sore indeed,
And its pleasures fleeting, vain,
The goal is shadowy seems and dim,
Yet plod on through the dark, brave heart,
With all thy might and main.

Not a work will be lost, no struggle vain,
Though hopes be blighted, powers gone;
Of thy loins shall come the heirs to all,
Then hold on yet a while, brave soul,
No good is e’er undone.

Though the good and the wise in life are few,
Yet theirs are the reins to lead,
The mases know but late the worth;
Heed none and gently guide.

With thee are those who see afar,
With thee is the Lord of might,                                                                                                                                                                          All blessings pour on thee, great soul                                                                                                                                                                To thee may all come right!

- Swami Vivekananda (12 Jan, 1863 – 4 July, 1902)

The OH to AHA experience of book reading!

By now, either through a face-to-face chat with me or through the design of my blog or through some other way you would have understood that I like BOOKS. And if you have not yet known the truth, let me tell you that I like books. In fact I love them……

Yes, I do! But the sad part is that though I like books, I don’t know why I develop a strange feeling of hatred towards my ‘course books’. And this has been a case all through my life – as far as I can remember.

Be it during my school days, or those I.Sc days, or even my engineering days. And then during my entrance exam preparation, I repeated the same pattern. It doesn’t end here, and still now, when I’m trying to pick up the course books that I should be reading, I’m pulled the other way – to some other books. Surprisingly though, these books have already been read by me, not once or twice, but repeated number of times. Still……L

However, one thing I’ll say that even though I’ve read them multiple number of times each reading is a new experience. Each time while going through the same sentences of the same pages of the same book, I just feel surprised – “AHA! What thoughts! how could i miss such an important sentence the last time!”J

But then I realize, “probably, because then I was noticing something else!” And then I think, “Am I getting enlightened like MAHAVIRA OR SOME OTHER ….VIRA!!!!!:P:P”

That is why there are a few books I repeatedly get back to, seeking answers to my doubts. However, this is what destroys attraction to reading course book.

Anyways, what about you – Do you like books? Course books? Have you been through any similar surprising experience?

Damn this creative mind!

Did you read my previous post -  ‘Surprisingly creative’? Yes, if you have read that post, you must have figured out why, and how much I loved the ‘creative’ lobe of my brain in action.

But not always!

For, at times, its activity invites painful troubles – troubles I would never allow to creep into my life, if I’ve to opt. But I don’t get the option then. It’s just in an instant that my mind frames the story, prompting me to an unwilling action. And I really hate it then!

Not many, but there are such moments. Like when somebody says something to me in a certain way. Or when some other-body looks at me in a certain manner. Or maybe, at times, when somebody behaves in a strange style. And my creative self finds…… finds its own reaso s and tailors its own stories for that particular action.

Most, if not all, of these stories are destructive. I go on building up a painful and traumatic atmosphere all around me. I start ‘creating’ future possibilities, based only on these stories. What does it bring? Mental troubles…. Worsened –if not broken – relationships ….. total havoc in life!

The worst part – along with the pain to my own self, I also put others around me in a similar, if not more – pain

And every time I fall in such creative situations, I take the oath never again to let my brain ‘create’ in such moments. But – damn – the creative mind doesn’t get rid of its habit. Still, I look ahead towards a bright future – when I can stop my creativity – at will!

In fact, we all have such a zone of creativity. So, what about you? Do you like your ‘creative mind’? Unlike me, can you control its creativity? Have you ever been into a bad situation due to its creativity?